i have a long night ahead of me.
so i shall allow myself time to blog before i fall off the table and die of exhaustion.

i supposed i convinced emm today after the whole long..um..talking, complaining, discussion and crying that i am a horrible, unsympathetic, unempathetic -. basically a vey disgusting - to have.

i know i should be grateful that i am not going through what i think - is going through.
i know im supposed to be empathetic.
i know. i do. it's just that, it happened too many times that i just cannot except it anymore.
maybe it's just that im too lucky not to be in this kind of circumstance
but it seems to me that it doesnt only happen during circumstances like these, but in fact all the time.
i can predict almost all the time that it's going to happen.
just that i keep on telling myself maybe that it wont this time.
i sucessfully convince myself, but then what happens next just totally proves me wrong.

there were many many many other things. i assure you.
i seem happy most of the time.
yes. but not when there are totally way too many things to handle. [i have only one mouth. 0.o]
i know i am responsible for -. but not for - either.
especially what happened just - before -

forget it. i just cant understand.